whatcha think?

For the 6 to 10 of you who read my posts, I am wondering if you still care to go on reading my stuff?

I will continue to write regardless, but I am this way/that way about posting it here.

It helps to know someone is reading it, but maybe these 6 to 10 hits are just accidents for all I know.

I wanted to hear a yea or nah on continuing.

I will be deleting my old stuff in a few days.

As for life these days, I feel much more free since I've ended the last of my old friendships. It continues to surprise me how positive this turned out.  I wonder if it is a positive thing for them too?  I hope so.  Maybe they felt the heaviness of the relationship too.

An odd thing happened last night, I felt as though I were spreading apart...dissolving.  I am not crazy, nor was I intoxicated by any means.  I have been making a lot of healthy changes and it was new moon, where I set a new intention for things.  It was a queer feeling, as though whatever particles make me up were moving apart.  The universe is expanding too...it was like that, but it was just me walking through the kitchen.

I'm tired today.  My illness is acting up and the pain takes its toll.

I've done a lot this week, A LOT.   I feel all the better for it.  I am fortunate.  It seems the more fear doorways I pass through, the more contentment I am capable of feeling.

I have no friends to call my own.  It's okay, really okay.  I feel sure that good things are just around the corner.  May peace be upon us all, eh?